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Dating...

2011-06-13T23:09:00.000-07:00

I'm still single and yes I go on dates. There isn't one guy, well obviously I wouldn't be back on the dating scene if there was ONE guy :)

Here's a thought, why do people use the phrase "I had fun, lets hang out again soon!" Or "Let's do this again!" anything like that. My thing is, if you had fun, great, if you want to hang out again then awesome! But if you, male or female, do not want to hang out again then don't say it. Isn't easier at the end of the date to just say, thanks for tonight and leave it at that?

I'd rather not hear the phrase "let's do this again" when there's no intention of doing so. Makes it a whole lot easier - lol. But of course I'm not going to tire myself out and keep wondering is he going to call...I'm going to keep my options open. There's no point in me waiting for someone until I know for sure!

I guess where I'm coming from, and I've been in the dating scene for quite some time now... there just so many things that frustrate me in this whole dating world. Really, it's just hard, tiresome, annoying, but it is fun when it's good company.

Till the next thought...

E

Act Like a Woman, Think Like a Man

2011-03-08T23:21:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since I've written in here. Lots of things have been changing in my life, most of it I'm happy with =) A lot of exciting stuff too!

In earlier entries I had written about my dating experiences - which have been deleted so you can stop searching :) - since my girlfriends were encouraging me to write about them. For some reason I end up with a lot of funny and ridiculous stories. Looking back it's so funny, sometimes sad - geez I'm still single, but then I just remind myself well obviously there's a reason why it didn't work out! LOL.

Anyway, I just finished reading a book by Steve Harvey, Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man. I have to say, OMG totally made sense - even though as a woman, deep inside I already know most of what he was saying, it's just always good to have a refresher! Totally recommend this to any woman out there who is just down in the dumps right now, frustrated, or curious, anything! Now don't go believing EVERY single thing in this book - but it is entertaining and there are a few good points.

Now I know a lot of reviews about Steve Harvey and this book haven't been great - he's not so hot himself...BUT what I took from it is basically as a woman I should never lower my standards, NEVER. As a woman, we should never have to compromise that much if the man isn't willing to change himself.

LOL - I could go on and on - the whole topic of a man and a woman and how we think differently could just go on for days! Not tonight!

Cheers,

Erin

2010-03-10T23:50:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I just don't want to think about my future or my dreams right now. I'm not in a place where I want to be and those just need to be on hold.

It's not that I don't have passion or drive...it's just not something I'm thinking about right now.

2010-03-08T17:03:00.000-08:00

Stumbled upon this song and it's totally what I'm feeling right now...

Listening

2010-01-31T21:34:00.001-08:00

When have I become this person that I am right now? I didn't know that people could see..or should I say I didn't know that what I have become, someone dear to me can see it.

I'll admit, I have felt lost and at times I still do. I feel as though what I have become is not who I am, not who I was. There's a side of me that I do like, but there is that part of me that has gone away. I used to be more confident in my decisions, with my words. I used to be more gung ho about things, now I'm shying away?

I don't want to be this anymore...I want to be who I was, when I wasn't afraid. I'm tired of this person that has taken over.

Somewhere I lost myself and I've been struggling to find her.

I need to step back and take a breather.

I need a pad!

2010-01-29T23:13:00.000-08:00

I dislike Mac and whatever they make :) I'm a pc person. So I didn't know what the heck an iPad was until I finally googled it tonight. And I still don't see why people need it?

But then one of my best friends showed me why....

Happy New Year! 2010

2010-01-01T19:14:00.000-08:00

It's 2010! Here's what I wrote for last new year's 2009:
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soo...it's 2009, my year! weeee! and apparently it's also the year of the OX! :) so even better to be more optimistic and excited for this NEW YEAR! Instead of having New Years Resolutions....I have New Life Goals...which I've been working towards since the end of 2008. Why? Well because I figured..I can't be moping and being lazy and complain..I need to DO IT! yes..so this year won't be sad, won't be tiresome, won't be unpleasant...

Bye bye sucky 2008! HELLO 2009!
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And was 2009 awesome for me, despite being laid off...That sucked. But other than that, 2009 was amazing, so proud of myself. The things that I've accomplished in 2009:
- Happier with myself, found my inner beauty
- Re-examined my relationships and adjusted my lifestyle
- Made sure I had fun!
- Met new people
- Found out more about myself that has made me more cautious...
- Made a life changing decision.

Now it's 2010, and just like last year..I have Life Goals! I am so pumped for this year and at the same time scared. This year will be even better than last..I'm becoming more comfortable in my own skin and it's just an amazing feeling to be able to just be me without worrying so much what others think.

Thank you to everyone, my family and friends for a great year. I love you all!

Congrats to Tai and Andrew Chon

2009-12-27T23:32:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Dec. 26, 2009, I was able to witness the marriage of my friend Tai and her new husband Andrew. It had to be one of the most beautiful weddings I've been to so far. =) I've always seen how much in love Andrew is with Tai and it was just amazing to be able to experience their love yesterday.

Lately, many people that I know or people of friends, are getting married. I'm turning 25 in 7 days and I used to think that by now I would be engaged or married.... It's amazing how life surprises you.

For being the person that I am, the kind that falls in love with love, or how my gf says that I let my heart play too much, it is kind of..it makes me wonder. Why I'm where I am right now in my life..only God knows.

Being the romantic that I am..it's a lil sad to think that I didn't have a special someone for Xmas, or nor will I have anyone on NYE, or on my bday. But it's okay. I'm grateful for my parents, my friends, my family, my life.

Love will come...eventually.

Boyfriend?!

2009-12-20T22:01:00.000-08:00

Tonight while in the kitchen making Christmas Dinner I had a convo with my Mom. It went like this:

Mom: So...is that your new boyfriend?

Me: What boyfriend?

Mom: That guy in all your pictures?

Me: I have a boyfriend...(Thinking: what guy?!)

Mom: That guy?!

Me: (thinking: guy in my pictures??? wait a second...) You mean that guy on my facebook???

Mom: yes!

Me: hahahhaha, no Mom, that's not my boyfriend. That's a singer (Mayer Hawthorne) I don't have a boyfriend! hahahhaa!

ehhh sad...

It's December again!

2009-12-16T21:48:00.000-08:00

2009 is almost over!!!!

This year has been..well let's just say I learned a lot. A lot of it seems like it happened a long time ago too....

One of the things that I've really started to realize and just understand more is how I handle my friendships. I guess what I mean is that yea, past years I know I've said "I know who my true friends are.." But this time, now that I'm becoming more of an "adult" =) I have finally put my foot down.

I can now say, I don't care and really NOT care! And boy does it feel much better. In the past, I've been known to put aside the way I feel and always do things for others, despite how strongly I didn't want to. There's been some situations this year and I just think...why waste my time?

I'm moving on! I'm happier and I'm enjoying myself a lot more!

Apple Cup! GO HUSKIES

2009-11-28T14:46:00.001-08:00

It's the APPLE CUP people! And yes, my team may not be the greatest this season, but I have school spirit..and I LOVE the HUSKIES! Let's make those cougs cry! =)

GO HUSKIES!

My McDreamy

2009-11-10T22:48:00.001-08:00

For the past month and a half I've been having really bad nightmares...where there was always death. So bad I would wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat or be crying...

But this last week I had a dream and it was a good dream. So now, when I'm down, I think about this dream and how happy I was when I woke up from it.

In this dream, I met my own McDreamy. Who he is I do not know, but what I felt was just amazing. This man held me and I felt every emotion you could feel that was so intimate. It was those passionate feelings you have with your significant other. It was just the two of us, and in his embrace I forgot all my stress, all my fears, I was secure and I felt his love. The feelings I felt were so intense and amazing, so deep and profound...I could feel his heartbeat. It was that vivid I woke up feeling it still. There was no kissing or other types of physical activity ;) but just the two of us holding each other and our emotions intensifying the longer we stood there.

That must be the most amazing dream I've ever had by far. Which also brings me to believe that one day I will meet him, my own McDreamy.

Life changing decisions...

2009-10-26T00:43:00.000-07:00

About to make one of the biggest decisions in my life...actually, I've already decided.

Pre-wedding...

2009-10-07T15:05:00.000-07:00

One of my best friends is getting married this weekend! =)

I'm a bridesmaid but I'm also giving a lil speech...which I still have to write. But just thinking about it is already making me teary-eyed.

::sigh:: I know out of my group of friends, I'm the one that they say would be married first...but when I was running today I was thinking that even though my "time line" is way off, I'm okay with that. So I'm not going to be married by the time I'm 26...but that's OKAY.

I've been thinking about how much I fall in love with love and the idea of having a family, and my hopes of having that soon is totally clouding my mind!

Although I'm a lil sad that my "plan" of life is not going the way I thought it would...hahaha, I'm super happy for Jean and Michael.

oh and instead of giving up on men, I've decided that I guess sometimes you just have to go through a whole box of chocolates before you find the piece u like the most. Jean found hers fast! =)

=(

2009-09-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

Well....

I'm in a hole...it got worse today...the opening seems so far FAR away...

blah...

FML

Dreaming...

2009-09-09T13:45:00.000-07:00

Taller than me
Loves to laugh
Big smile
Smiling eyes
Enjoys hiking
Into sports
Into music
Loves to eat
Can be serious
Loves to talk
playful
....

Bumbershoot 2009

2009-09-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

This Labor Day weekend, I went to Bumbershoot for my very first time! =) I wanted to go all three days but I only went to Sunday, September 5, 2009. It was a lot of fun and I enjoyed it a lot despite the odd weather..Mother Nature decided she wanted all sorts of stuff happening: rain, strong winds, sprinkles and of course sunshine!

I picked up Cupcake and we headed down to Seattle Center, found parking in the garage and hurried to get our passes for our main reason of going, my boyfriend: Jason Mraz <3. style="text-align: center;">Noodle Man

We had about an hour until the Yeah Yeah Yeahs would be on so we decided to just head over to the stage and wait. I forgot who was playing while we were waiting..but we have people watching..especially the crazies that thought the rain was actually bright shining sun that they were wearing booty shorts and no jackets!! =)

Cupcake and I

Finally, Yeah Yeah Yeahs came on! Awesome awesome! and they played my only song I know and love: Maps! haha! Ducksoo came and joined us...

Yeah Yeah Yeahs performance

Afterwards we walked around a bit...enjoyed the artwork, they ate corn, I didn't eat corn since..too much trouble with my braces =(

THEN since we still had FOUR hours to kill..what else do you do when you're 21+ drink beer of course! Headed out and tried to find a bar..we ended up in Belltown at Cyclops, had a beer each then walked over to Del Rey..and what do you know? Del Rey has HH all day on Sundays! =)

Since our bellies were full of beer and snacks..headed back to Bumbershoot..ate some more and then headed to the Mainstage to wait for my hot love, Mr. Jason Mraz...We caught the end of Michael Franti w/ Spearhead..and last song..Mr. Mraz popped out!

This was when Mraz first started...we ended up closer towards the end of his set.

My highlight of the day: Jason Mraz...such an amazing performer live and very funny too! =) Despite the rain on and off..the smokers...it was so awesome! I'm still on a Jason Mraz high right now... ::sigh:: What an awesome ending to a perfect weekend!

Mailbox Peak

2009-09-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

(ahh...it's September already! eek..must cram more things before summer's actually over..)

This past Sunday I went on a hike with Cupcake at Mailbox Peak, after hearing from Brian and David that we wouldn't be able to hike it. They estimated it would take us a minimum of six hours to a max 8 hours....

Mailbox Peak is located on I-90, exit 34. It's not a very well known hike, so there's no bathrooms, let alone a sign at the makeshift parking area that says that you are AT Mailbox Peak. It is a difficult hike and I wouldn't recommend it as your first hiking adventure if you haven't gone hiking before, UNLESS you are in great shape. =)

It starts off on the forest floor, nice and cool and pretty..then you start to go up..and up and up and up. It is steep and slippery because of the loose dirt and rocks. Definitely a hike that requires some help of hiking poles or sticks (like how some are left at the trail head by previous hikers so awesome!)

One of two mailboxes...filled with journals, cds, deodorant, phone books..etc..

Cupcake looking out...

You'll reach the summit at 4, 841 feet, breathtaking views..and of course pretty old Mt. Rainier!

Roundtrip mi.: 6.0
Elev. gain: 4040 ft
High point: 4841 ft

Would I say that this was the most difficult hike that I've ever been on? No...it's just as hard as Bandera Mountain which reaches an elevations of 5,200 feet.

Roundtrip mi.: 7.0
Elev. gain: 3000 ft
High point: 5200 ft

My Dad and I at the top

So, what's my next hike? I don't know yet, but I'm excited for it! Bring it WA! =)

=(

2009-08-30T21:58:00.000-07:00

I never thought I could get myself into this situation that I am in...but I guess the only thing I can do is just work hard to get myself out of it.

Hawaii 2009

2009-08-10T00:05:00.000-07:00

My biggest vacation this year was to Hawaii. The last time that I was there longer than three days was for my senior trip after high school (6 years ago). This trip for me was an eye-opener! I found myself sitting a lot and thinking about everything, my life, where I am, what I'm doing...Being away from home made me take a step back and really REALLY look at myself.

I spent 9 days on the island of Oahu, staying with my grandparents to save $$. In the 9 days I was there here is a list of what I did:
- beach EVERY single day
- ate about almost anything I could and that my pockets would allow
- frolicked around town and the island with good friends
- met my second cousin Stu...if you're into hip-hop you should listen to him: Werdupstu =)

- was introduced to 250 Bananas
- went on a date and got a free meal!! (sushi)
- got tricked into climbing Koko Head (1048 steps..it's a bitch)

- ate and ate and ate
- mangoes everyday fresh from Grandpa's garden
- got sunburned, bad
- am now dark dark dark! =)
- met new people
- ate shave ice, manapuas, poi, sushi, pig
- lomi salmon, poke, poke, poke!
- decided that I need to move to Hawaii within the next year...

Playing in the garden in Samoa Islands @PCC

Hono's Spicy Garlic Shrimp

Grandpa and I

My bradah Kevin and I on da beach in Lanikai!

Lanikai

Why?

2009-08-06T18:16:00.001-07:00

I walked in the door to my room tonight, set my stuff down and then all of a sudden the floodgates opened and I can't stop crying....

I don't even know why I'm crying like this.

I'm Leaving

2009-08-03T11:16:00.000-07:00

It's funny how guys can be....so surprised at how they can act like girls. =)

I'm not in a relationship, but I feel like I can relate to this song a lot...just totally speaks my mind!! =)

Ba de ya... =)

2009-07-14T13:07:00.001-07:00

I'm not on vacay until Monday, but I've been listening to music to help the days go by. PLUS trying to stay happy!! Here's what I'm feelin right now, dance with me would ya!?!

Canadia

2009-07-12T12:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to CanadIA with some friends. I went to Granville Island for my very first time..the tourist spot! Walked around the market and oogled at the expensive fruits and the millions of delicious buttery pastries. I settled for a falafel since I've never had them before. A plain falafel ain't all that so I decided on the falafel pita. Considering it's only been a month and a half since my surgery...eating that pita was difficult but I did it!!

Then we had some gelato from Gi Gelato & Coffee House..now I hate being rushed into things...but despite the fact they don't have the time for dilly dallying, I ended up with two good choices: Tiramisu and Coffee Toffee!

After lunch we walked around and around and around...Our main reason to go to Canadia was for the Richmond Night Market...so what better way to kill time than to walk around in the sun! =)

DJ and I got pooped on by a blk bird =(

So off we go to Richmond and after driving around we finally found the Summer Night Market! So basically it's not that big but tons of food...mostly all the same so you just go by which one captivates you at that one moment if you're feeling like dumplings or a skewer..etc... =)

The one thing though that I dislike about Canadia is how their money makes me forget it's REAL money and that I'm really just spending $60 on food when I really shouldn't. =( sadly I have no pictures of the food since I forgot my phone and my camera! oh well!

Now off I go to burn off the millions of calories from yesterday!

::edit::
I totally forgot about the accident we saw :( we were approaching the city of Vancouver when all of a sudden traffic stopped on the freeway. A motorcyclist was ran over by a truck...unfortunately he did not make it :(

I'm lost..

2009-07-07T16:04:00.000-07:00

::sigh:: 2009...what happened?

New Goals

2009-07-04T13:17:00.000-07:00

I've been dealing with some "complicated" things lately...(complicated being my new word right now)

so I've been adding new goals to my life =)

- staying positive despite the things that bring me down
- surrounding myself with good people
- keep on track for my training for the half marathon this Fall
- stop catering to other people
- not struggling to prove to people things, just prove to myself
- love myself more
- getting back to my healthier eating habits
- go on a LOT of hikes this summer
- keeping my circle small...doesn't have to be big
- have fun and lots of it!
- try out new things
- curb the drinking
- see more movies!
- go camping!
- stop falling....

I'm determined! Really I am...I'm sorry for the things that may offend any of you (speaking to those who even read this blog..and you're here in my life)

I'm my own person..I don't need to be told what to do and what not to do..you can suggest things..but don't tell me how to live my life or how I feel, ask me first please...I know how I feel inside already. =)

Thanks...

What I feel lately..for many things...

2009-06-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

So I've been feeling a lot..make that millions of things lately.. Like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions that can't seem to stay in their seats. I guess I need to slow down and just take it all in and accept?

Another Day

2009-06-23T09:18:00.000-07:00

so...Two weekends ago...I lost my mom's camera. ::sigh:: That just sucks.

I still need to find the time and post photos from my vacation last month. My goal is to do it before I go on my next MUCH needed vacay to Hawaii!!

hmmm..what else is new? Well I've been itching to do more outdoor things such as hiking, camping, day trips...oh and that thing called running.

Oh and I have been wanting to try out all these restaurants I've been hearing about..but I'm still healing (my jaw) so it sucks that I can't really eat normal foods yet. Bleh...

mmm..I've been feeling as if lately..within this path two months..I've been experiencing a lot of negative things. oyyyy I just can't get a break. Oh well suck it up right?!

FACK

2009-06-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

You know what my problem is???

I am too nice. I do too much for people who don't deserve it. I put myself in situations where I end up wanting to kick myself in the a** cuz I know I just get hurt. Why do I always feel the need that I need to be nice...what keeps pulling me back??? is it fear? WTF is it????

::sigh:: does anyone know? I want to stop feeling like I didn't get anything out of it, I need to stop feeling the need to be there all the time, I need to CARE about MYSELF MORE SO than anyone else. I keep thinking that I'm getting there and then something comes along and messes it all up again.

well shoot, here is my thing..

1. focus on training for half marathon
2. focus on ME
3. Be nice to ME first
4. Stop giving a damn all the time
5. FOCUS ON ME
6. Stop thinking!!!!!!!
7. 2009 is MY year....MINE!!! I need to remember my new year's resolution...it's already half way over and I'm hitting the bump in the road!
8. Love myself more.

Missed Opportunity

2009-06-15T12:45:00.001-07:00

It sucks and I feel like kicking myself in the butt for a missed opportunity. Where art thou...???

::sigh:: maybe the fairies will grant me a wish and I can redeem myself?

p.s.
Update...It's been exactly two weeks today that I had the jaw surgery. The swelling has gone down a lot, still swollen and a lot of bruises...which have turned into hickey lookalikes. And people think they're hickeys. I saw my ortho doc today, he said things look awesome. I have another checkup with the surgeon this week.

My screws are made out of titanium so that made me sad, i wanted to be the person that sets off the alarms at the airport! hahaha!

Eeeekk!

2009-05-25T22:55:00.000-07:00

I am really scared now...Less than a week. I'm starting to have nightmares about it, what have I gotten myself into. :(

p.s.
I have a lot to share about my trip, I know. I'll get to it eventually.

Home

2009-05-24T21:27:00.000-07:00

I'm home now! yay!

oyyyy what a long vacay.....aren't vacations suppose to relax you and make you feel better? Why do I feel so tired???

Good to be home though...my own bed, I missed you.

From my cousin

2009-05-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

My cousin left yesterday for Korea to teach English for a year or so. :( Sad days, I feel like a part of me is gone. Isn't it weird when you feel like the closer you're getting to someone, they end up leaving?

My cousin is five years younger than me yet sometimes I feel like she's older than how old she really is. Love her! I find myself looking to her for advise...which I prolly would NOT do to any other 18/19 years old....LOL

I will miss her lots and of course I will miss Jong Eun who had become one of my good friends. :(

Words my cousin left me with "Don't get drunk! AND remember that you don't need to settle because you deserve the best. Waiting for it is the hard part..."

I love her :) And she's right...I deserve the best don't I? and waiting is the hard part....

Braces Update

2009-05-06T22:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm only writing this for myself..that no one reads it...oh well.

Today, I got a call from the surgeon's office asking me if I was coming in today? HUH? So I forgot that my appt was moved to TODAY instead of next week the 13th. oyyy..so I had to haul ass over to Swedish from work.

The ladies at the desk are nice, but the lady who did my records was NOT nice. :( Now, I've been use to people putting their hands in my mouth and pulling and tugging...for just over two years now. This lady was doing my xrays first...telling me "okay you can step back now!!!" Umm first of all you have a hook in my mouth that is "hooked" into my mouth and I'm unable to just step back...durrr lower the damn thing..I'm only 5' 2" :(

Then we go back to the room, sits me in the chair..and now I have to do molds. So maybe I have a fancy orthodontist, and they love me...so they put flavored things in whatever they put in my mouth. Today...did not happen. This Mold stuff tastes like NASTINESS!! making me want to gag and choke...plus she stuffs a big BIG size tray in my mouth that I'm drooling all over myself. This goes one for 30 mins or so. The paper towel she gives me is soaked, yet she doesn't give me anymore..therefore I'm drooling all over the place - down my neck, my shirt, on my arm... :(

Then when I want to ask questions about the surgery she gives me this look like "gahh really?" and then her answers are so mechanical that it just makes me shut up...oh lets not forget the way she looked at me like I'm an inconvenience. :( I just want to be babied okay! I've never had this big of SURGERY in my LIFE!

so then I give one of the nice ladies..three BIG checks... :( poorness....

and I'm sent off with a folder full of crap to read..and now my heart is beating fast....June 1 is coming TOO FAST! :(

The Weekend

2009-05-04T08:54:00.001-07:00

(I'm still waiting on photos from my cousin...so slow!)

ahhh the weekend...Here's what I did!

Friday:
Dinner at Ate Grace's house in Tukwila - homecooked Filipino food! YUM! Something about just hanging with the fam..and being loud and obnoxious..awesome! Oh an I made all the aunties laugh at the "new" pinoy jokes I learned via youtube... muahah and I still get a kick out of them!

Wolverine: Mayroong kami ng mga tikets para sa 9:00pm showing sa Regal..pero kapag dumating kami, puno na puno ng theater. soooo the aunties decided we will stand in the 9:40 showing... :) and lol the ushers wanted to see the tickets again...we had the paper print outs kasi ng binili ko ng mga tikets sa internet, the aunties idea was to put the papers right up to the guys face...LOL. By the way...maybe I'm biased..but I liked the movie!

Saturday:

Swim Class - Pumunta ako sa swimming lesson! :) I had fun..I'm excited now! But didn't realize how tired it would make me on top of my allergy pills...I slept the whole day afterwards!

Paquiao vs Hatton - Pumunta ako sa bahay ng kuya ko at manood natin ng fight...TWO ROUNDS! LOL wow....wow!

Crimson - Went out with friends...oy oy oy! Hini ko pwede mag-drink like that ANYMORE! oyyy para sa sinabihin ng uncle ko..."hindi ka pweded mag-hang sa mga lalaki!"
- also met a guy that night that I thought was just blk..he spoke better tagalog than me..and so I'm itching to speak it more...

Sunday:
Church!
then luckily I didn't/wasn't sick at church...the hangover kicked in after church..and what a sucky afternoon...
Fun times at Green Lake..

What a busy weekend! Excited for this week! :)

Yesterday

2009-05-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday felt like a Friday and I think I treated it like a Friday too! :) go me!

I had my dental cleaning yesterday morning..I was trying to avoid it for a couple more months, but they insisted. And of course I get lectured for not using fluoride! Man, I cannot WAIT to get these braces off, so many restrictions and rules and such a pain man!

The weather was so awesome I didn't want to go to work, but of course I had to. Work too longer than expected...ick...but I still go to enjoy the bright sunshine.

I drove to Green Lake and sat on the grass to people watch and take in the beautiful surroundings...Usually when I'm there I don't get to enjoy it as much since I go there to run. Sitting there on the pretty grass was breathtaking...watching the people go by, doggies running around (I'm a sucker for animals :D)...

Then I met up with JT and the rest of the guys...attempted to catch the football but of course I can't since Kevin's throw is freaking scary! AND of course I suck at throwing back the football but got kind of close to Kevin? almost?

Enjoyed a beer at Red Hen...good talk with JT...and off i went to see my cousin and Jong Eun. BTW the pomegranate frozen yogurt @ Red Mango doesn't taste like pomegranate...it's just regular froyo that's pink! LOL!

what an awesome day to what I thought wouldnt' be awesome! I hope today is just as good ;-)

I did it!

2009-04-29T22:32:00.000-07:00

:) eek! I did it! I signed up for my swimming lessons...ehhhh

Now I'm scared. hehe!

Buying a Swimsuit

2009-04-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

not many people know this, but I don't know how to swim. So, I'm taking swimming lessons!! :)

Yea yea..."you don't know how to swim??" ehhhh NOT everyone does okay? I can remember my Dad trying to teach me...friends....my neices...my ex...

So now, I'm taking a step forward and putting myself out there and face my fear!!! BUT first I decided that I need a bathing suit..a one piece. I think that it'll be more comfortable and at least if anything happened no "oopsies" would occur; at least not that easily.

::sigh:: This afternoon I tried to go find one. I stopped at Northgate...first to Nordstrom then to Macy's. I think I tried on about ten suits....and NOT ONE fit right!! one problem is that the the suit will fit but when it comes to the boobage area....it decides to cause me some problems!! gahh either the cups aren't covering enough of the boobage...the strap decides it doesn't want to stay up....

THEN another problem is that I have a longer torso...which I didn't think would be a problem but I guess I was wrong. Some of the suits I guess are only made for people with short torsos, making the top part of the suit to come down lower...basically starting from my upper stomach..which means MORE exposure in the boobage area...freaking A!

::sigh:: I shall have to hit some other stores..........I hate when I need something I can't find it...but when I'm NOT looking for anything I end up buying things that jump out at me!!!

bleck!

hmm...

2009-04-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

Confused. confused. confused. ehhhhhh!

Talking to my bestest friend...I guess I need to change my game plan of life. HAHA! My goals...let's just say due to the timing issue, need to be changed. gahh...Oh wells right. That's life even though I don't want it to happen this way..I have no choice, cuz it isn't my choice!

I shouldn't be afraid either. I think parts of me..my past and experiences make me afraid. Being scared...it's making it difficult for me to function and I believe it may even be dirtying up my goggles. :D

So I must be a big girl now and take the step forward? And put myself out there? ehhhh.....lemme stick to babysteps for now please! haha!

p.s.
Pictures from the weekend with cousin...should be up soon as soon as she sends them to me!!!! As for now you can see my FB mobile pics.....included was sushi, cupcakes, tulips and ribs! What a weekend!

Friday Part II

2009-04-24T23:48:00.001-07:00

:) I know..two posts in one day? sorry!

As you may know, or you don't, I am an alumni member of alpha Kappa Delta Phi, an Asian-American Interest sorority, at the UW Pi chapter. Today was the 9th Annual Domestic Violence Showcase that we hold and produce with the Kuyas (Omega Phi Omega). It was a great show (good job guys! gave me goose bumps!)

I got to see girls I haven't seen in awhile...partly because after college I became "busy". It's nice to know though, that even though I haven't seen some of these girls in MONTHS, it always seems easy to just fall right into a convo that's filled with laughter and jokes...and not one moment of silence....unless our mouths are full of food!

I love these girls and the house....no matter how much time I've spent apart...or the ups and downs that occur. I can always count on them, or just one to be there in any occasion.

After the showcase, we went to The Ram...mmmm the mojitos were especially refreshing tonight! some fattening appetizers and of course you can't go wrong with the bread pudding, especially THEIRS!! I've had bread pudding elsewhere..but I'm sorry I would drive 40 mins to Seattle to just eat this thing! Let me know if you have not had the opportunity to enjoy this special treat!

Anyways...The night was good..such a good day. Thank you everyone!

loves,
Heeli

It's another Friday!

2009-04-24T09:07:00.001-07:00

Happy Friday y'all!

What an odd week...can I just say TGIF!! what a weird weird week this has been!

What I've learned so far...

1. HH(happy hour) does not mean I have to ENJOY it to the fullest. - I enjoy going to hh cuz I'm broke like the rest of the world and sometimes even when I don't have $$$ I LIKE to enjoy things outside of being home. BUT this time, maybe cuz I was with a different crowd...LOL waking up the next day with a hangover that lasts the whole day makes me a sad panda!!! AND having to go to work....blehhh

2. Apparently when I've had a few drinks I tend to be "mean" according to some people. Maybe they said I was bossy?? I sorry I sorry I sorry! With whip cream, sprinkles and a cherry on top!

3. I don't know how I get home to Marysville after a night of "fun". I should really stop..no I NEED to stop that! goshhh!

4. I don't like games...no..I don't like THE game!

5. My sister laughs at me because I realize that I'm scared...and she says "You're scared cuz you know what happened to Janet..HAAHAHA... and what's funny is that I said the same thing to her too!" - isn't she suppose to be my sister and not laugh at me! You just wait Ver...wait till Vegas...I'll make you feel sorry!

6. Finding out things that you had a feeling about...and actually finding out it's true...SUCKS ASS!

mmm....

7. Eating fried food and a milkshake in the afternoon makes me feel like a BLOATED SAD PANDA!

8. McDreamy and McSteamy...what more can I say?

Ick...

2009-04-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

Ick to myself...

why do I do this to myself? I keep thinking I'm better..and then all of a sudden it comes crashing down on me AGAIN!

Seriously...what would make me feel better is .................................................................... That would make me feel better.

Seriously....

Mt. Si

2009-04-19T22:49:00.001-07:00

Diem and I went to Mt. Si for our first hike of the season. Unfortunately we didn't make it all the way up due to snow...we shall be back! Can't wait for our next hike!

Ouchies!

2009-04-16T09:20:00.000-07:00

Does anyone have any suggestions for my running regimen?

Last night I ran at Green Lake...unfortunately I felt like a loser because my shin splints were really bad!!! So bad that my legs are still throbbing! wtf!

So frustrated....I'm thinking my new shoes are part of the problem, they seem a little too big for me. I will try to return them and find another pair. I guess today I will take a break, tomorrow though...I will try again!

hmm...reaching my goal seems so much farther now!

ohhhh I do want to know if anyone has any suggestions of what music I should put on my mp3 player? I'm really bad at choosing songs to exercise too, so please if you are reading this, and know of ANY song that is not slow...share share!

muahhh I'll love you forever..or I'll buy you ice cream! :)

Confused, frustrated, bleck!

2009-04-13T21:14:00.000-07:00

::SIGH::

There, I had to let out my big sigh......

I just don't get it, maybe I'm just not suppose to understand? That's what I don't like or enjoy. Is not knowing and being confused!!! Goshhhh

I need a vacation from this place...and I have trips planned, but not soon enough. I want out. I want to be away from here from everything.

If you have an idea..take me there please!

Hello Monday!

2009-04-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Monday y'all!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend and was able to spend it with their family. My Easter this year was a little different than usual since my parents were in Cali since last Tuesday. They didn't return home until last night. Usually on Easter we go to church, like every Sunday, not just holidays :) and then we'll have an Easter lunch/dinner...whichever my mom decides when we will eat. And then we just chill or go over to someone's house.

Since my parents were gone, and having fun at my SISTER'S house in cali...blehhh... I went to church on my own. Then I had lunch with my Uncle, cuz and friend: dim sum at Purple Dot! LOL! no ham for me this year! :( Then we went to sbux in uvillage and had coffee with Val and Jojo. Very chill..

btw, the big sbux at Uvill will be closing on April 18th until June? They're doing a big remodel to make it MORE eco friendly...perhaps more seating? They have this huge display about the plans and materials that are going to be used, kinda neat. That means....less place for UW students to study for spring quarter finals! muahahhaha! glad that's not me! Cheers to that!

Alone...and bored...

2009-04-12T00:21:00.000-07:00

I've been home alone since Tuesday, :) yes I live at home with my parents! (don't hate)

Once in awhile I always wish I lived alone, but I realized that I don't like being alone, at least not every day. Once in awhile is fine, I don't have anyone to talk to right now beside my pets...LOL I like to talk..and there's no one else here in my house! :)

Another thing of being alone, I guess it's a good thing, is that I've been thinking A LOT! haha..about everything..makes me sleepy. Just a few minutes ago, I was thinking about how many words do people usually say in a day, out loud that is. cuz no one's here in the house but me...so I really don't talk. And in this day of technology, no one likes to call anymore! Everything is text, email, messengers, etc. Is that weird? Look I'm thinking and speaking through my blog right now because I can't sleep!

ughhh...

Can you tell I'm bored? Another thing that I find...this will prolly be more embarrassing for me rather than interesting... I scared our puppy Mochi and had a big laugh. Mochi was walking around the kitchen sniffing around. I hid behind the china cabinet and once he was in front of me I jumped out and scared the shiettt out of him...I swear he jumped back three feet! lol...and then I felt alone cuz I was laughing..all...by...myself! How LAME!!!!!!!

oy oy...none of this makes sense, so sorry. ehhhh well off i go to put laundry away.

It's Wednesday!

2009-04-08T07:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Hump Day to y'all! Good news for me...my surgery was pushed back to June 1st!! That means i won't have to worry about being able to eat by the time I go to Vegas ( to play with my sisters) and Tucson (family reunion including a LUAU) next month!!!

I did a lot these past few days in which I must update and post photos..but since I'm at work right now I just feel like rambling...and if y'all don't mind maybe vent a little. This is my blog anyway!

Lately I have just been thinking and assessing my situation dealing with friends. It's funny that after college, they say that the friends that you keep are the ones you made during those AMAZING college years. I guess that doesn't work for everyone huh!? I've noticed that the people who mean a lot to me, are the ones that I got to know more towards the end of college or after. I'm amazed at how much they have influenced my life and I can't describe what such an incredible feeling it is to know that there are people out there who will be there for a long time.

I'm so grateful to have these incredible, awesome and genuine loves in my life.

Cheers to that!

Sunny Days!

2009-04-04T14:20:00.000-07:00

Oh the joys of good weather and good people! Love it love it love IT!

While running at Green Lake yesterday, the sunshine made me feel so good! What a difference it was, just to run and feeling the warmth coming down...the pretty animals...made me close my eyes and just feel Spring!!!!

23 days left...

Today...

2009-04-02T22:58:00.000-07:00

Today I feel like Gigi.... ehhhh me don't want to be her.

Thank goodness for gyms, friends and running!

25 days

Braces

2009-03-31T22:04:00.000-07:00

Mehh....yesterday I took the day off to take care of business since it seems as though I can't finish everything after I get off work. And I did everything I needed to get done, almost!

One of the things was to figure our my jaw surgery schedule...eeek and it's set!! And now I'm freaking out!!! Really bad..but I remind myself that this takes me closer to getting my braces off!! AND am I glad for that!

I have been wearing my braces for two years this coming May, I got them on when I was 22 years old. At first they sucked and I hated them...then I got used to them. But now I find it very bothersome and am itching to get them off.

I'm 24 years old and I feel like the braces are making me more self-conscious. Being single, I tend to think that when I'm meeting someone they automatically will be looking at my mouth..at my braces. :( This is what I think..so then I get discouraged and then I give up....

Another reason is...I'm tired of feeling metal in my mouth! I want to be able to eat things and not have to pick at my braces to push food out..although I feel like my tongue is a lot stronger now.....

Anyway..the countdown begins.... 27 days till surgery!

So...

2009-03-19T22:55:00.000-07:00

So....I've been learning a lot about MANY things lately... I've been hurt a lot and I've struggled with trying to "fix" things, going with people's ways...forgetting myself.

Well I'm done with that....and I just need to focus on what's real.

"You are a piece of shit!"

2009-03-09T21:40:00.000-07:00

About a year ago, I wrote a review for a restaurant, New China Express in udistrict...the review was about my experience that i had five years ago...during my freshmen year at UW.

This is what I wrote...

New China Express
Category: Chinese
Neighborhood: University District

3/5/2008
While a student at UW...trying out the restaurants was fun except this place. SERVICE is horrible, the food is not even good, AND another restaurant that likes to DEMAND a tip AND has the nerve to make the waitress check the table for a tip! I tend to not tip especially when they made us wait 15 min for a menu and the food was served cold.

.....

I checked my email this morning to see that someone wrote me a message on my Yelp account...LOL I'm not threatened by this...but I thought it was HILAROIOUSSSSSSS that this person took the time to write this..SAD!

Headline: You are a piece of shit

i don't tend to comment on these things, but you are a nasty splotch on the face of UW students, and embarrass me with your attendance at my university. you tend not to tip...and don't make the connection with shitty service? you are why servers (including myself) hate some customers. i know you wrote this a year ago but it happened to fall on my birthday, and i can't hold back my animosity towards you...i really, really do hope that you get some foodborne illness from someone hacking up something nasty in your meal. you are not only a terrible person but a miserable excuse for a product of our educational system, which has only taught you disdain for those who have to bust ass to serve your pathetic self. have fun contracting diseases for the rest of your life you entitled, spoilt, piece of trash that you are.

sent by Mar G.

Here is HER review that she wrote for what she thinks is a FOUR star restaurant: :)
New China Express
Category: Chinese
Neighborhood: University District

3/8/2009
Alright, this place isn't 5-star. HOWEVER, I signed up for yelp specifically to defend it. It's consistently entertaining to see people proudly declare that they never tip (here's looking at you, Erin. E, you useless excuse for a human) and then bitch about the service. Being a foodslinger myself, I tend to tip pretty well, and accordingly have never called at one-something in the morning and NOT gotten a delicious, and very well prepared, meal. They are always very pleasant and FAST; granted, all I have experience with is Americanized Chinese food, but if you aren't deadset on authenticity this place is lovely. It is good, if generic, straight-up Chinese.
ERIN. E, AND ALL OTHERS LIKE YOU, BE FOREWARNED THAT WE ALL SPIT IN YOUR FOOD. If you can't afford a tip you can't afford to eat out. I hope you get botulism, and so does everyone else whose ever had the misfortune to wait on you. You are a piece of shit.
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So I thought it was funny! Hope y'all enjoyed that! btw, I do usually tip, in case where i'm treated badly such as what happened at New China Express, I tend to not tip during those times. There's only two times that I have refused to tip....

Snowboarding....

2009-02-28T21:26:00.000-08:00

I shall conquer it...eventually... ::sigh::

Love...

2009-02-14T14:52:00.000-08:00

Happy Day of Love!

Last night I witnessed the marriage of one of my friends from high school...a beautiful (and fun) ceremony. I really loved the message from her Pastor, I hope to one day have something similar at my wedding...whenever that will be. :)

Listening to him speak last night...made me think about what I want in my life...with Love... I know that I'm the type of person who will give my all to that special someone, I will love them always. It's kind of scary to think what love will or can make you do...such a big thing that it frightens me to be in love with someone...it's heart wrenching when it isn't what you thought it would be.....

What I want in love is described in here...My friend had it read in her ceremony last night... from 1 Corinthians 13...

1 Corinthians 13

Love

¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

.....Love is always...

Happy Love Day!

Can you please put that phone away??? >o(

2009-01-30T08:13:00.000-08:00

Wednesday afternoon, I watched Slumdog Millionaire at the Majestic Bay Theater in Ballard, with two of my awesome friends, Jenny and Diem. I love the movie, if you haven't seen it, you NEED to watch it! seriously touches your heart! Makes you feel every emotion! If you haven't been to Majestic Bay Theater, it's very cute and small, definitely would go back there again, the staff was very friendly!

BUT, the audience isn't always pleasant. :) Here's the story....

First part of our Slumdog Millionaire adventure: I wanted to sit closer to the top, since it was a very big screen, but the seating was a lot lower than normal.. The third row from the top had open seats in the middle, facing the screen on your left a whole bunch of old ladies were sitting..on the right was a couple, prolly in their 30s. We decided to cross over the couple rather than walking over 10 people.

Now...here's the thing...if you decide to sit on the end of a row, don't be a bitch and grunt and give dirty looks if people need to get to the 6 seats to the left of you....this wonderful couple decides to load their "carry-ons" on the floor around their feet for us to trip over.. Thanks! Don't be mad at me if I step on your crap...you could have put it on the empty seats next to you?!

Lesson: don't complain if you sit at the end of a row knowing there are empty seats in the middle of the row...duhhhhhh people are gonna sit there!

SECOND half of our movie adventure! THE BEST PART!

Jenny and I both have blackberries. we had them in our lap in case Diem was trying to get a hold of us..she was running late as usual. :)

We're in the middle of the row, Jenny to my left, Diem's seat to my right. On Jenny's left is an empty seat and then an old lady to the left of that chair. Now, Jenny's bb was on her lap, between her bag and her stomach, screen facing her stomach. The little light was flashing indicating that she had a message of some sort.... again, facing her stomach. Now this flashing light is like a mm bit..it is not in your face flashing. As Diem finds her seat, the old lady (as in senior citizen) reaches over the empty seat, GRABS Jenny's arm and tells her "Can you put that away, your phone is very distracting"

That made me laugh..idiot? really it bothers you that much??? what kind of peripheral vision you have that you can't concentrate on the wide screen in front of you? so Jenny obliges after giving her the confused look...like huh??? She puts in her her bag, tote bag. it's in the cellphone slot now.

NOW THE MOVIE IS HALF WAY OVER...the damn lady reaches over AGAIn, grabs Jenny's arm and says "that is soooooo distracting!!!" Really lady??? really????? nowwwww you say something again? Poor Jenny...she said "what do you want me to do? it's in my bag!" sheesh..now Jenny could have said something back, like I would have if it were me... but she bit her tongue and turned her purse over... ridiculous! I'm RIGHT next to Jenny and it didn't bother me....why would it bother an old biatch two seats over??? reallY?? really?

oh the adventures of the movie theater!

Go watch the movie!

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T10:42:00.000-08:00

Happy Happy 2009 y'all! YAY!

I went out last night to Barca (on Capital Hill) with friends which was a lot of fun! :-) I was going to stay home..but I figured since I'm so excited for this year to start I can't welcome it sitting at home, alone and watching fireworks on tv.

Going out was a better choice! Met new people, surrounded by crazyness..actually I was pretty surprised that there wasn't too much crazyness!! Except for the idiots who were mad because we were crossing the crosswalk...You know, I don't care if YOU'RE DRUNK, but if you see people who are on the crosswalk and they're just two feet from their destination....don't throw a pissy fit yo! sheesh...and duhhhhh we had the right of way idiots...OH and what does stopping in the road to yell at me do for you? I've already crossed the street to where I want to go, so you can stop traffic all you want...doesn't bother me! who's the f'er now!?

After Barca, a few of us went to Purple Dot. Now if I could choose, I'd rather go to Honey Court or Jade Garden; just because I feel those two place 'taste' more real? haha...I think Purple Dot tastes too pretty. heehee! One of the guys with us has never had Asian food...EVER...sooo it was amazing to see how antsy he was. muahhaha, too funny. I told him that it's all in your head and it's sad when people don't try things; you need to be open minded...especially living in SEATTLE? how do you not eat other foods other than American??? Plus your taste buds are a lot different when you're an adult...plus you can't lose anything by trying; you either like it or you don't. Too bad we didn't order the chicken feet! hehe!

soo...it's 2009, my year! weeee! and apparently it's also the year of the OX! :) so even better to be more optimistic and excited for this NEW YEAR! Instead of having New Years Resolutions....I have New Life Goals...which I've been working towards since the end of 2008. Why? Well because I figured..I can't be moping and being lazy and complain..I need to DO IT! yes..so this year won't be sad, won't be tiresome, won't be unpleasant...

Bye bye sucky 2008! HELLO 2009!

:o)

2008-12-28T22:02:00.000-08:00

Just 7 days.....

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope that y'all have a good Christmas...enjoy the time being with family! :-)

This year...my Christmas has been good...last year's was sad....this year I actually feel the meaning of Christmas more!

I'm sad that the snow will be gone soon..sighhh I really enjoyed it A LOT! I didn't mind driving in it! I loved playing in it...haha it does suck though when Seattle...actually all of western WA is not prepared for this type of weather... ha!

I can't wait for the New Year to start... yes! come 2009! now!

One Month from TODAY

2008-12-04T09:23:00.001-08:00

One month from TODAYYYYYY...a lil baby was born!!!

and it was ME! :o)

Unlike most people I know, I REALLY really enjoy birthdays...in fact I LOOK forward to turning a year older. Why? mmm maybe because I feel awkward right now...not really knowing who I am, what I am..that sort of thing. I feel as if turning one more year older each time, I can look back on the past year and see how much I have grown and experienced! That's why I look forward to it, it's not about the presents or the parties...just gaining more 'beauty' within myself is what makes me happy. and of course...we age like wine right? haha...I like to think so too...I feel MORE beautiful NOW than I ever did in high school!!!

And of course sharing my day with two other special January 4th babies I know: Heing Lim and John Hanks. yay for us!

:(

2008-12-02T14:50:00.001-08:00

sighh... oh the pains of being sick....

Thanks and Giving

2008-11-24T22:08:00.000-08:00

Are you thankful this year? WHAT are you thankful for? Did you enjoy 2008?

I should answer my own questions hmm...

Am I thankful for this year: yes and no

Things that I'm thankful for:

1. AMAZING FRIENDS: seriously, this year has been a very tough one for me. A LOT of learning about myself and what I like and enjoy. With out the constant support, the hugs, the laughter, the tears and shoulders from ALL my amazing friends....I would be lost. Really I would be. Thank YOU to all OF YOU!

2. MY FAMILY: For my family, for being there for me through my hard times, for supporting me and watching me fall but helping me get on my feet. I really am, truly and deeply thankful for that.

3. BUDDY AND SLOPPY: Thankful for them because they gave me their "shoulder" when I didn't want to be seen crying by anyone else... :) Love me for me...not only cuz i give them food.. ;o)

4. GOD: need I say more?

5. MYSELF: "hmmm" you might say...yourself you ask? Well, I've been thinking about it lately and I have to be thankful for myself because if I didn't go through what I did this year, I don't think i would ever let or know who my true self is. Doesn't make sense? Even if I "suffered" the bad...I don't think I could have survived it if I didn't think about myself and be selfish for once. YES, I had the need to be selfish so that I could focus on ME. and just pleasing ME and only ME.

There are many things that I'm thankful for...but these five are THE most important.

Did I enjoy 2008? To be honest. There were good times like: finally finishing college and receiving the degree in the mail...Family vacations...other than that and overall...NO I didn't enjoy 2008.

2008 for me has been such a stressful and exhausting year. I really couldn't have done it if it weren't for my girlfriends. You think that the man in ur life or the woman in your life is all that you need...Friends, the ones that will call you to make sure you're home, the ones that pick up when you're in tears at 3am, the ones that buy you medicine when you're sick, the ones that hold ur hair back when you feel the world coming out of your stomach...the ones that smile and think of you when they're on the "toilet", the ones that will fall with you and lay there till you're ready to get back up...the ones that will offer their hand and guide you to the happy thoughts...the ones that encourage you to meet new people, the ones that will stuff their face with you with obscene amount of food, the ones that will drink with you till you don't feel the pain but the FUN giddyness instead, the ones that tell you "hey, that's an ugly shirt, don't wear that," the ones that wipe the tears off your face AND the ones that SMACK the smirk off your face too, the ones that will take you on a hike cuz you enjoy it, the ones that will jog at your pace because they care about you, the ones that tell you you're the most beautiful and WILL NOT let you call yourself ugly and fat...if it weren't for these beautiful women in my life....I could say that 2008 was really a shitty year...but because of them, it wasn't so bad! Thank you!

Giving: I wish I gave more this year...I wish i wasn't so focused on myself and that I was able to give more to others...2009...should be my year for giving since I made this year to be the "taking" year. I'm sorry if I ignored you, I'm sorry if I wasn't there enough for you, I'm sorry if I was a butt to you, but you know, I will let you do that to me too if you need. :)

Happy Thanksgiving to you.

Apple Cup 2008

2008-11-22T18:17:00.000-08:00

sigh...sad day. We didn't win the game today, :( that's okay.

I noticed something though, some people watch it and then if they don't play well, people automatically start hating on them "they SUCK!" "WTF!" etc....etc... Even though I'm sad we didn't win, I don't know why even though yes, it was a sucky game, but maybe cuz I went to a "small" town high school..I have too much school spirit. haha I went to MPHS and our team rarely won any football games, but you could expect the stadium FULL to the MAX every home game! and I would be there with friends just because we loved our school and team that much!

So maybe those who dawg on the teams A LOT don't have that much team spirit....give them a break... at least they tried! :-)

PLUS, I feel like 2008 SUCKED in A LOT OF THINGS..... hahaha! I'm REALLLLLYYY excited for 2009.

A new year...

new hope........

starting over....

and of course Huskies will beat cougars' asses! :o)

Disgusted...

2008-11-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

Driving to work this morning, I hear a story on the radio that just sickens me and breaks my heart. Of all the bad things happening in the world, I just can't comprehend kids raping other kids.

Here's the story "2 Boys arrested in rape of Lacey girl, 13" Komo 4 News
LACEY, Wash. - Two boys, aged 12 and 14, have been arrested on suspicion of raping a 13-year-old girl after luring her to an apartment, police said.

According to police, the boys admitted to raping the girl after inviting her to come to an apartment building in Lacey to watch a movie.

The boys were both taken into custody and held on $10,000 bail. The 14-year-old has posted bail, but is required to stay on electronic home monitoring.

The 12-year-old remains in confinement.

I just can't see how kids think like this, I try to remember when I was their age, I wasn't even interested in boys, let alone sex? at that age? yeah there's curiosity but why??

My heart goes out to the lil girl, It frightens me of what could happen to my nieces, same age...I guess you can't trust and assume that all kids are innocent and nice.

let him fly...

2008-10-27T00:21:00.000-07:00

Ain't no talkin to this man
Ain't no pretty other side
Ain't no way to understand the stupid words of pride
It would take an acrobat, and I already tried all that so
I'm gonna let him fly
Things can move at such a pace
The second hand just waved goodbye
You know the light has left his face
But you can't recall just where or why
So there was really nothing to it
I just went and cut right through it
I said I'm gonna let him fly

There's no mercy in a live wire
No rest at all in freedom
Of the choices we are given it's no choice at all
The proof is in the fire
You touch before it moves away
But you must always know how long to stay and when to go

And there ain't no talkin to this man
He's been tryin to tell me so
It took awhile to understand the beauty of just letting go
Cause it would take an acrobat, I already tried all that
I'm gonna let him fly
I'm gonna let him fly
I'm gonna let him fly

To Lie...

2008-10-20T22:59:00.000-07:00

Lately I have had much to think about...One of the things that have always bothered me are lies. I will admit that I have lied once in awhile, but not to a degree that would hurt someone dearly.

I feel like writing this just because there are so many things running through my mind. People lie, that's a fact, but I think that when it becomes a situation where that's all you do to someone you care about, it's a problem. It really hurts, and it is hard for the person to trust the "liar".

I'm not saying that people should just be honest about everything, I know that is hard for people to do, but I think in relationships....You shouldn't lie. You should be honest with your significant other. It's funny to think and how much people can put up with....but why? I don't know maybe cuz out of love, or just think it will get better? Who knows.

Little white lies, here and there I don't mind. But when it affects the person greatly, why do it? It hurts more to find out that you've been lied to, it hurts more because you can't trust them or it is hard to trust them. It hurts to think about how much was true and how much was not...

Lies hurt.

Pictures...

2008-10-13T21:05:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures!

Here is our korean bbq dinner courtesy of Karen. Might I say, YUM!

One of my favorite side dishes, the bean sprouts! YUM

Kevin is PATIENTLY waiting! :)

Vienna thinks something is REALLY funny!

But of course these two just had to take a NORMAL pic!

Memories...Part II

2008-10-08T21:16:00.000-07:00

Saturday night concluded the four of us: Karen, Vienna, Kevin and I, trying to have a "sleepover" that we thought we would stay up talking all night....I think we're old now...That didn't happen! :-) Kevin and I fell fast asleep while the other two talked till early morning hours!

Sunday happened, for lunch we had Edina Sushi! MMM I hadn't been there in so long! I really enjoy that place! Especially because sometimes I don't feel like driving all the way down to Seattle for sushi! After a very filling lunch, we had to say our goodbyes to Kevin! See you soon Kevin!!

I decided to go follow Karen and Vienna and the rest of their friends for some yummy, delicious, organic ICE CREAM!!! Where else? Molly Moon's Ice Cream of course!I've been here twice so far, and each time (once during the day, once at night) was really busy...must wait in line! My favorites so far are the Blueberry and the Maple Walnut. I suggest to never order the Salted Carmel! :)

After ice cream, Karen, Ducksoo and I toured Windemere estates...can I say WOW! :)

A couple of hours later, we headed back up north to Lynnwood for Jean and Mike's engagement party! I just realized that none of us took pictures! haha! I guess that's what you get when people are just grubbing! After everyone was majorly full, we just sat around reminiscing about funny moments from over the years. That tends to happen a lot when you haven't seen someone in so long!

Makes me miss a lot of things and how life used to be. So many happy memories that makes you want to just go back in time...But we can't, must move on. I think letting go is the hardest things to do and realizing that you're not in that moment anymore. Watching it go by is difficult. BUT I'm learning that I need to enjoy today, tomorrow and the next. Enjoy every minute of my life for what is now...which by the way, :) is still hard for me to do. I like to think though that it is getting better...

Memories...

2008-10-07T07:33:00.000-07:00

This past weekend was a busy one :) One of old friends from college, Kevin, came up to visit from Vancouver. He also came up to say goodbye to another friend, Karen, who left yesterday morning for Hawai'i :) It was a much needed reunion...being with old friends is such a fun thing to do..brings back memories!

Saturday started out with dim sum at one of my favorite Chinese restaurants in Chinatown (International District), Jade Garden. This was my first time eating there for dim sum and WOW do you have to wait!! :) My friend told me that typically for this place...people wait 30 min to an hour or more! Karen, Vienna, Kevin and I waited for almost an hour. But it was worth it. We had Shu Mai (of course!), stuffed noodles, spring rolls (for Vienna), Char Siu Bao, spareribs, shrimp dumplings with chives and a few other things. All fed the four of us for only $30! Thank you Vienna!!!

Afterwards we walked up the hill towards Hau Hau aka How How (we noticed they spelled it differently) and shopped for veggies and shrimp. Next we headed to UVillage where we walked around and had coffee. We enjoyed some pure bred labradors and other dogs, it was dog day in the village. While sitting around we end up talking about how we miss being in school and the freedom you had, the less responsibilities there were, the less "adult" we were. mmmm...the good ol' days! Vienna had to leave for a concert, so Karen, Kevin and I headed back to karen's place in Sandpoint.

We chilled and relaxed cuz we were still amazingly full from our brunch. We watched Knocked Up - a funny funny movie, in my opinion! ;-) Towards half way through, Karen started prepping for our Korean BBQ - Samgyeopsal (fatty slices of pork thinly sliced...think lil bacon). Kevin and I had to make a run to the store to pick up a few more ingredients, plus some dessert and we also decided on buying soju yogurt drink! I was in charge of making the drink, but since I don't like the taste of Soju (bleck!) I put in two packs of yogurt with the one bottle of soju and a can of sierra mist. HAHA! If you don't like it sweet and yogurt-y, then don't do what I need, but for those of you who could careless if you tasted the soju? This is a good recipe for you! :)

We sat down finally! to homemade Korean bbq, I must say it is different than eating at the restaurant! It was delicious, so much veggies and lots of lettuce, mmmmm mmm yum! Thanks Karen!

We cleaned up afterwards and sat around the table, finishing our yummy soju yogurt and reminiscing about what we used to do for fun while in college, and how fast time has gone by...sad...

After chilling for a bit, we headed to the Parlor, which to my surprise was EXTREMELY BUSYYYY! FULL CAPACITY busy! bleck!!! You will not be seeing me there for a long while! BLECK!

The night ended with the four of us passing out back at karen's for we unfortunately we're extremely pooped from ou full day of events!

I shall continue the weekend later! This is too long now! hehe!

More San Francisco :-)

2008-09-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

Another episode of my trip to San Francisco! :-)

Here is my mom and my Auntie Nora with a NEW favorite wine of mine. I must say, I really like Italian wines, especially my all time favorite Moscato! We ate at this little Italian restaurant called Ristorante Ideale. mmmm DELICIOUS! That was the first time I have eaten at a NON-chain Italian restaurant, and I'm sorry I still love Maggiano's and Buca, but they can't compare to the 'real' thing. :) Homemade pastas and sauces?! How can you resist!

Ottella Lugana Le Creete, 2005: I need to find this wine in Seattle, have any of you had it before?
Me and my neice Nikki, gosh, she's only 12!

My beautiful and very delicious meal - Spaghetti alla chitarra w/ fresh scallops (and a lot of them too! )

Back at the hotel, my neice and I were going through and looking around and playing with everything. I was bored, but this woke me up.... How you like to have a Krug Ultimate Bath? It will only cost you mmm $1,650.00! :) It reads: Pamper yourself with the ultimate luxury. A Magnum of Krug and four ounces of Caspian Osetra Caviar is the quintessential way to beging or end the day. Extravagance and euphoria await.

So cute, I notice that when they turn down the beds for you at the St. Regis, they also create a cozy reading space next to the big windows for some night time reading...while enjoying the evening view of the city.

The next day, we set off for Chinatown. This time instead of taking a cab, we walked...Chinatown was much closer to our hotel than Little Italy. Here we started at the "main" entrance.
The gates of Chinatown, I must say, our Chinatown in Seattle is nothing compared to San Francisco.

New and old, fancy and cheap...you can find anything here!

The morning rays over the city as we're walking around to find a dim sum place.

It would only make sense to name your food court in Chinatown, "Chinatown Food Court"!!! :)
This is all for now, I can't seem to get myself to make a long post. I hope y'all are enjoying my stories. There will be more photos to come.

By the way, has anyone watched Grey's Anatomy last night? I'm a big big fan of the show, and I still don't see how people think it was stoopid. Sheesh...if the characters did what everyone think they should do, then it wouldnt' be a show now, would it?

Fall and Rainbows

2008-09-25T19:34:00.000-07:00

It is funny how I live in a state that gets rained on but then suddenly no one knows how to drive when it's sprinkling? haha! When I leave on time from work, 3:00pm, and drive straight home to Marysville it usually only takes about 40 min. Today, it took me two hours! Sighhhhhh!

BUT I did enjoy seeing the rainbow in the sky...Pretty :) Reminds me of being in Hawaii and seeing rainbows. I feel like when I see a rainbow, it means that something good will happen, or things will get better. Sometimes I think it means that someone has found peace in their lives. It was a moment that made me stop and think and ignore all the yucky traffic around me, and just breathe.

I had another moment like that yesterday morning while driving to work. Yes I was late...hehe make that two hours late, sighhh. I don't take the Seattle exits to my work, instead I take the Green Lake exit. It is a very pretty drive going by the lake especially in the morning. The morning light has this special way of lighting things and making it just seem so peaceful, aside from the morning traffic on the highway. Yesterday as I was driving on Greenlake Way N., the sun was shining bright in the morning and setting its rays on the trees lining the street. It was really pretty, like I was in the country or a movie, where I forgot where I was. I notice that the leaves have started changing colors, and were at the bright orangey yellow color but still lots of green left. It was just a moment that all of a sudden made me happy.

It also made me think how much I love Fall, I still enjoy all the three other seasons mind you, but there is something about fall that just makes me feel different...maybe it's the crisp morning air, or the colors of fall. The weather is changing, not yet feezing, but not too cold still a lil warm at times. Makes me think of a nice cup of hot chocolate... I think Fall is one of the most romantic seasons too. The colors are deep and it's a time to snuggle. mmmm...

If I stop and pay attention around me, and quit stressing over every thing in my life, I'll have more moments like these. These are precious to me, I don't know why, to some it may seem silly, but I just really enjoy them.

<3

More of my San Francisco Trip...

2008-09-23T18:08:00.000-07:00

Here are more photos from my trip to San Francisco during Labor Day Weekend. Enjoy!

A clock corner

A go cart

The Palace

:( Here is an image that we all see...this stood out to me more because compared to Seattle, SF didn't have a lot of homeless people. OR maybe I just didn't think of it as much because SF is a BIGGER city.

Mom and Sister

Our hotel living room

My neice Nikki and I in Little Italy before dinner.

A street corner in Little Italy.

Funny story about our cab ride from the hotel to Little Italy:
The Door man at the St. Regis pulled a cab over for us to take us to Little Italy for dinner. The five of us all get into the car. The cab driver (I think he's of Middle Eastern descent...not sure) did not even look at us at all because he was on a VERY important phone call on his blue tooth ear phone.
We take off, still after several blocks or so and three lights later, he speaks to us, cuz you know he's been in a phone call the whole time. He asks where we're going, we say Little Italy to Ristorante Ideale and the address.
He asks "how many of you are there?"
We answer "5 of us."
Cab driver: "Shit...5! shit! I'm not suppose to have 5!"
Us: "well u never said anything."
Cab driver: "shit...(then starts speaking in his language to the person on the phone...asldfjadljsd!)"
Us: You can just let us off we can walk..
Cab driver: no, fine.

So he drives us the rest of the way while talking loudly to the person on the phone. We get to Little Italy, he stops in the middle of the road and says "here!"
Us: "Where's the restaurant?"
Cab driver: "I don't know you guys said the street."
Us: w/e so my Mom, my aunt, my neice and I get out of the car first. My sister stays inside to pay, now it took awhile for her to get out of the cab and I can see through the window that she's talking heatedly, all the while holding cars up behind the cab to cause them to start honking.

My sister finally gets out of the cab and here's her convo:
Cab driver: $7 (my sister hands him $10)
Sister: Where's the restaurant?
Cab driver: there!
Sister: You know what? I want my change.
Cab driver: You only gave me $10
Sister: yeah I want my $3 back!
The cab driver gives her the $3.
Sister: I was going to tip you but because you were so rude, you don't deserve a tip. You didn't even acknowledge us when we got into the cab, we could have walked but you wouldn't let us out. and then you don't even take us to the restaurant. I make more money than you I can afford to tip you, you don't make more than I do, you have no right to treat us this way. We're paying customers! Who do you think you are?"

and before she slams the door on him she says "Now you be NICE!"

:)
hehe funny story!

Now on the way back after dinner, the cab driver was I think Vietnamese, last name Nguyen. Didn't speak to us at all, but since I was in the front, i notice the meter. We took off, but the meter already said $3.11???
Now we keep driving, and the price goes up, so I typed a note on my phone and made my sister look at it, and they all looked and was asking how come it's so expensive already??? Okay, we're asian too, but you know, you can't be driving a taxi cab without knowing how to speak ANY English....

So dumbass cab driver pretends to not hear and we rack up a $12 cab ride home. Whatever, these people, will get in in the end.....Karma! What goes around comes around...beware you nasty people!

Procrastinating...

2008-09-18T23:21:00.000-07:00

Instead of working on my resume right now, I have decided to post some pics from my Cali trip!!

For Labor Day weekend, I went to Cali to see my sister and to go to San Franciso!!! My original plan was to get away from home....but it didn't happen that way... My mom ended up coming ::sigh:: It was fun, but I hate to admit but I was disappointed, I just wanted to get away for a few days :( Is that being selfish? anyways...

So we both flew down to Sacramento on Friday and ate some yummy Thai food!!! MMMMM! We just hung out that day at my sister's house. The next morning, we were suppose to leave by 830-9ish. Instead we left around 10-1030. The drive is about two hours to San Franciso which isn't bad at all...yummy In-n-out for breakfast!

Now my plan prior to my mom coming, was to go around the city and see San Franciso with my 23-year-old eyes!! (the times that i do remember being there was for my other sister's graduation and once just at the Fisherman's Warf) I didn't get to do that, I figured I need to go back to enjoy the city more with out family....

A street corner

My neice Nikki (the middle one)

My sister was nice enough to take me to the Golden Gate Bridge, even though she and my mother complained, it's just a bridge, u can see it from here! blah balh! Just take me to the bridge!!!

It was a beautiful day, very lucky to have been able to see the whole bridge with not one cloud, just your normal smog :)

Sadly, my sister would only put 30 mins worth in the meter....
To the hotel we go, the St. Regis that is. My sister will "only" stay at certain places...mmmhmmm. Here is me and my niece fooling around in the rooms, being kids!

Okay, it's almost midnight...way past my normal bedtime, yet I'm not working tomorrow! Still I'm exhausted, I shall continue this story tomorrow! :)

Goodnight!

home...

2008-09-01T22:21:00.001-07:00

my trips wasn't long enough....

:o(

F R I E N D S

2008-08-24T12:36:00.000-07:00

Friends...I am thankful to have a life full of friends, new and old. When I'm down, there is always someone there to cheer me up, make me laugh, and remind me that tomorrow is another day. I do feel though, that everything isn't it always cheery with friends, fights and arguments build friendships when people can work it out.

The ones that never work out, prolly not a good idea to stay friends with...

Thank you to my friends...I don't know what I would do with out y'all.

love,

nene

Happy Times

2008-08-20T23:30:00.000-07:00

I traded the LG Shine for a Blackberry Curve in Red. MMM...I'm still playing with it, haven't looked at everything on it yet. But I'm happy with it so far! :)

Today was kind of blah again...actually this whole week has been very blah........ so decided to post pictures of things that make me happy or that I was happy in....

Snow Lake

Crescent Lake

New Phone: LG Shine

2008-08-18T09:17:00.000-07:00

I had to replace my phone this weekend...and it happened to be the time of my contract ending..Upgrade time! how funny!

I chose the LG Shine in red. I like the big screen and the color and it just being a new phone. But now after reading a lot of reviews..it seems like the majority ends up returning the phone to get a different one. It is weird to know how a $300 phone drops down to $50 in a year....

Any suggestions? Should I keep it? Should i trade it for something else? I have 30 days...and does anyone know how long the battery lasts? most people are saying that the battery life is short... :o(

Camping on Camano Island

2008-08-11T17:34:00.000-07:00

Edit: I added photos! Brian used his camera during the weekend and most of the photos are taken by him.

This weekend I went camping with some friends on Camano Island at the State Park from August 8th to the 10th. I wish I had some photos but I forgot my camera. :-( BUT I can still talk about the trip! Brian, Jean and I got there on Friday, late morning. We were an hour behind our target time hehe cuz SOMEBODY wasn't packed yet (Brian)!

Jean and I

We got to the camp sites and drove around trying to get one with a view of the beach/water, those were all taken. We finally decided on one that turned out to be really spacious, not as much privacy as we would like, but had some. The three of us were starving, so we quickly pitched the tent and then made lunch: yummy Cheddar Cheese burgers with grilled onions!

We decided to go down to the beach and play in the water, and so Brian could catch us some fishys! We stayed at the beach for a couple of hours, and Brian caught a little fishy (we prolly weren't supposed to keep it, but we did anyways) and then headed back to camp.
As Brian was trying to park the truck, Jean and I were looking out the window to help guide him, when we saw a bunch of crows on our picnic table and squirrels running to the table. We started freaking out and ran out the truck to see that the stoopid crows and squirrels got into our food bins and ATE two bags of buns, ate a WHOLE bag of our kit kats, and tried to eat our marshmallows! sighhhh We were upset, yet it was really funny how before we were leaving to the beach, we were debating whether to hide the food in the truck from PEOPLE (decided not to) only to find the ANIMALS broke into it instead!

Later that night, the rest of our crew arrived and we enjoyed our lovely Hobo Dinners aka Foil Dinners, aka bunch of food wrapped in foil and cooked on the fire! We made lots of S'mores with CHOCOLATE marshmallows :) enjoyed a night of fun drinking...by the way, you can't walk around with your alki OR drink it anywhere other than your campsite OR at a picnic table....or you'll be in trouble! :-)

Preparing the HOBO dinners!

Saturday was a bunch of eating and lounging around and more alki! Plus a good game of TABOO yes, Nancy, Brian and I are so the winners! oh let's not forget about Cranium either where GIRLS rule AND boys suck ahem...i mean don't win.

Sunday, we ate the rest of our food, packed it up and headed down to the beach! What a nice afternoon with hot sun to lounge around in one of the most beautiful beaches I have seen in WA! So private and quiet!

Brian
Nancy napping.
Mike watching Matt try to "play" baseball.
Matt "playing" baseball.
Brian pitching.

Me.

We ended the night with our semi-traditional Pho dinner, this time at the pho restaurant next to Ranch Market on Highway 99, Pho To Chau. That had to be one of the yummiest pho I've had in awhile. or maybe I was just starving! :)

Sushi

2008-08-03T13:34:00.001-07:00

MMM....I had Sushi Land yesterday in Queen Anne. OMG! haha! I hadn't been there in so long, it was so good! the salmon was yummy fresh! I think i ate the most there in a long long while. I spent $10-$12. That's a lot of sushi for me! Everything looked so yummy that I couldn't resist eating more!!!!!

I want to go back soon.....

...

2008-08-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

Pain....

:(

?

Randomness...

2008-07-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

Today I was falling asleep again while driving home from work...I work in Seattle and commute Monday-Friday from Marysville (a 41 min commute without traffic)....when I decided to stop and get a coffee to keep me awake. I stopped at a Starbucks in Lynnwood area at exits 183 164th Street.

While I was leaving the lil complex, I was waiting at the light, sipping on my coffee when I noticed a man standing on the corner holding a sign. I can't recall ever seeing a homeless person in this area, I'm assuming he's homeless...could be wrong.. but he caught my attention anyways! WHY??? Well because the sign he was holding wasn't one that I have ever seen before and I found it to be funny.
Now..you can't really see it, sorry I was trying to be discreet and I wasn't that close to him either..
The sign reads "X-WIFE HAD BETTER LAWYER" :) kind of clever...

Later...after I had exited to my town, I was behind this Jeep that they had set on monster tires. I don't like monster tires, i think they look ridiculous, but if it floats your boat then go for it dude! This jeep had a bunch of crap on it, but one sticker made me laugh. This one said "Lowriders are for guys who can't get IT up!"

haha...what an entertaining day! bleh..

Pissed off at UW

2008-06-23T10:59:00.000-07:00

I'm mad because my name on my diploma, that cost me I don't even know how much anymore to receive, was misspelled!!! I am so annoyed that they are asking me to pay $20 to get it reprinted and that it is my fault that my name wasn't printed correctly.

SCREW THAT! I hate that I always have to deal with this name crap because I even had my adviser CORRECTLY write out my name for my graduation application and I EVEN HAD many many times tried to make STUPID UNIVERSITY OF WASHINGTON correct my name on my STOOPID TRANSCRIPTS!!!

I want my diploma to say my name correctly...but do I want it that bad to pay another $20??? I guess my reason to be whiny and complaining and angry right now is because we spend so much freaking money to go to damn college, that even down to the stoopid gown and camp and the threads on the tassle, that I have to PAY THEM $20 TO GET A NEW DIPLOMA????????

Really seriously? really? It should be something that they not only apologize to me about but DO IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!! gahhhhh

What would you do? Is it even worth it for me????

Trip to Pacific Beach

2008-06-17T21:25:00.001-07:00

During the first week of June, I went to Pacific Beach, WA (north of Ocean Shores/south of Moclips) with my parents and some church family. I had only spent one night there because of work, but it still was a nice relaxing getaway for me. I wish I was able to stay longer to enjoy the sunshine the next day, but unfortunately I couldn't. This place was one of the first Washington attraction I had been to when we first moved here. But we didn't stay in a 'cottage', we had camped on the beach for the first time.

This time we rented out a cottage from the Navy Resort. Here are just some of the pictures I took while I was there. By the way if you ever have a chance, I highly recommend going there and around the area. It is a different world from the city and so relaxing and peaceful! Plus you get to see the pure ocean, not just Puget Sound! ;)

A sad day...

2008-06-02T20:53:00.000-07:00

::Sigh:: My favorite place to have a mojito is gone! I really really liked Manzana Rotisserie Grille in Bellevue because they had the best mojito's i've had so far!! not only that, I also really liked their Chicken wings...which is prolly why i had been dreaming about them. I think it was a sign, telling me to go. I should just go instead of waiting for someone to accompany me :o( I really liked their hummus as well...mmm with the warm toasted flat/pita bread, and the big burger and fries! So sad!!!!!

I can taste the wings in my mouth and the yummy yummy Mojito! Now it will be Palomino's... :o( saddddd!!!!!!!!

:o(

Memorial Weekend

2008-05-28T21:56:00.000-07:00

This Memorial weekend was my first one not being in school! I just realized that as I'm typing..! haha! I spent most of it with my family *-* My brother was in town for training for his duty in Cuba, which I think he's on his way to right now. My sister flew in to come see him off with us. I hadn't seen my brother since I was five? But it was fun! I can definitely tell that he's the opposite of me, my mom and sister! We're the loud ones, he's the quite one! *-* haha! We did the Seattle thing, since he's only been to the Ft.Lewis and McChord. We went around downtown, spent the day at the market (which was really crowded), spent a couple of hours at Uwajimaya- ate free samples!, then had dinner at Elliot's Oyster House. Of which i realized that I really don't care for scallops...now don't get me wrong, I LOVE seafood, but there's just something with me and food food that I don't like the texture of scallops! HOw awful! sighh...maybe when I'm older! haha! To finish off, we stayed at the W hotel, mmmm pretty! BUT even though I enjoyed the amenities, the Bliss products...I still like the Westin beds! :)

My brother is on his way to Guantanamo Bay where he will be doing a 6 month duty replacing the current crew. I'm amazed at how much dedication he has, he's talking about trying to go Afghanistan afterwards, he's already been to Iraq. I know there are a lot of people that are against the war, the military, and blah blah, but I just hope that the same people remember the troops, sometimes I think that wasting ur breath arguing over something so much that it's easy to forget the people involved. Maybe because I come from a military family I'm a little biased, but it made me think more of why we have Memorial day, it's not just for us to go camping and drink our heads off. :)

** I was going to add some pics...but I'm too lazy, tomorrow I'll do it! *-*

Aware

2008-05-27T09:26:00.000-07:00

I need to be more aware of my surroundings and what's going on in the world other than what's going on in my bubble. I feel out of the loop, I didn't even know about the recent earthquake...I feel bad. ::sigh::

that summer feeling...

2008-05-18T15:16:00.000-07:00

ahhh the sun is out and making my skin feel warm and toasty. Makes me just want to lay on the grass and close my eyes and when I do that I imagine myself in a place where all my worries and stresses...all the yuck is gone and i'm just enjoying myself! What a world that would be huh?!

This summer teaser has made me start thinking what I'm going to do with myself for the rest of 2008....will I be working? will I be happy? will I be in that bikini that's sitting in my closet? where will I be?! so many things running through my mind, just don't know what to do with myself.. :o/

ahhhh...only time will tell yeah?

Credit to the WSDOT

2008-05-14T21:41:00.000-07:00

This entry is not to offend anyone who may work for WSDOT or any type of affiliation, but more for out of FRUSTRATION.

So if you have been up north towards Everett and beyond... You may have noticed that they expanded the freeway and what not. What bugs me about their great expansion that they believe would EASE the congestion is that it just SPREAD the traffic more north!!!

So frustrating to see that they added another lane to I-5 N to make it four lanes...but now that more cars are able to get through Everett JUST GET STUCK AT the end of the Everett section into Marysville and beyond!!! ohhhhh and their new SMART design for the entrance onto I-5 from 41st street...creates a freaking long a** line which creates MORE traffic on top of all the people trying to get past Everett orrrrr to those who are trying to get to highway 2....

blehhhhhh I wonder what they'll do know when they realize that after making I-5 N into four lanes...but it goes back to THREE lanes at the end of the Everett city limits.... now it even takes me longer to get home to Marysville...what used to be a 30 min drive from seattle...is now officially an HOUR drive...

I paid too much cuz I'm so Tired!

2008-04-29T19:58:00.001-07:00

***I just glanced at this post and realized there's a lot of spelling mistakes...oh well! Me too tired..

ughhh... I had stopped by Northgate mall on my way home today and my sleepyness hit me more. I decided to get a drink from the e-Bar at Nordies, a tall iced carmel macchiato. While I was stirring my drink at the counter, some how I almost knock my drink down but instead i knock my phone to the ground. Poor phone, been through a lot :( I head back to my car and drive home. I'm drinking my drink and thinking wow it tastes so good after not having a coffee drink from a store in almost a month! *-* yes yes me proud...then I'm still drinking it..and realize "this is so much, what the heck" So i'm looking at my drink and I realized instead of a tall, like I ordered, They gave me a grande which is freakin' BIG!

then it makes since why my drink was almost $4.00 freaking dollars! This is what happens when one is too sleepy and becomes unaware of his or her surroundings. NOW i have have a drink i can't even finish, such a waste! :(

Bahamas

2008-04-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

I feel old :o(

2008-04-24T19:11:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling old, I cannot stay up the way I used too! haha! Anyways, I have been working out when I have the time because I want to feel better about myself and other reasons. Anyhoo... a few months ago I had joined LA Fitness at the Everett Mall. I got a good deal on my membership. Yet sometimes I find it hard to get myself to go there. Why you ask did I join LA fitness and not 24 Hour Fitness? Because It is too far, and LA Fitness is far enough from my house anyways.

I enjoy my new gym, however, I really really miss MISS the IMA so much!!! ughhh I miss it all! haha! I still like my new gym because it is brand new, so it is not run down or crappy, and it still smells like new carpet for some reason and new rubber? Or maybe its just the smell of the shoes? I don't know.

Last week I went to my free training session because I got tired of them calling me and trying to reschedule it. So I went and being the stoopid me, at the end of it I couldn't say NO to their offer. I go home realizing that it is way too expensive, and really Do I really need someone to tell me what to do? I think he only showed me harder ways to push myself, but I have lost 20lbs in the past by myself.

I realize now that I just need to push myself a little more, do i want to be stick thin like all the stick people out there?
1. My body is not made in such a way to be able to,
2. NO i love my curves of what I do have and having hips and shape
3. I can't bring myself to starve myself and pretend that I'm not hungry.
4. I want to be Healthier AND Happier

Gimme a double H please! *-*

*sorry this is so long....as if anyone reads my blog anyways! haha! I guess this is for my own entertainment...or maybe for those of you who do read it, but don't really talk to me but want to know what I'm up to?! haha! That's alright. or No one really read its..haha!

April SNOW brings May Showers?

2008-04-20T14:32:00.000-07:00

hehe, who was surprised by our lil snow storm? I thought it was pretty, yet weird, but pretty! I first thought it was weird when back in high school in my junior year, it started snowing on us during tennis practice in late March.

But snow in April? heehee! pretty! hehe! anyways here are some pics I took with my cellphone as I was driving home from my gym in Everett!

I'm a Chicken!

2008-04-08T18:23:00.000-07:00

sigh... Today as I was leaving the u-district after work the meter was on at the ramp to get on the freeway. Not too bad since it was a lil after 4pm, so the freeway was still moving. As I am sitting waiting for my turn to go through the meter, I notice about mmmm 10 cars drive past me on the carpool lane. NOW...it MAY be a coincidence that all ten cars had small kids in the back seat and i just didn't happen to see them. BUT I'm pretty sure that those vehicles were only single occupants, especially from glancing in my side view mirrors how they kind of just appear from behind....

so...they make me want to go and pass the line too... If only I had the guts to do so...seeing as how NONE of them got pulled over. WHY didn't I do it too? Because knowing me I would be the one to get caught even if 10 cars passed on by with no trouble. I'm chicken.

la la la...

2008-04-06T23:20:00.000-07:00

MMM I found something I like now! Greek Yogurt! MMMMM.... to change up my yogurt and fruit and cereal meal, I decided to try Greek yogurt!

It's as if I'm eating cream! so delicious! Yum yum!

I'm on a path to start eating more healthier and at least to not go overboard with the bad stuff! haha!

Lately I've been getting headaches when I'm around my doggy Buddy! SAD!!!!

Here's some pics of Buddy on our walk today: (taken with my cellphone)

Ramen!

2008-03-20T00:04:00.000-07:00

I love ramen! the real stuff I love.. the instantness it's alright...not like the real thing! :)

Recently, well in the past year...Last May! I found a ramen shop downtown...Samurai Noodle! :) I went there and ate some yummyness! It made me happy cuz it reminded me of when I used to live in Japan...although it is nothing compared to what i remember of course...BUT for here in the US and cooked by non-asians! haha!

So today...as I was walking to go eat some YUMMY phad thai at Little Thai i noticed this big red sign next to one of my other faves, Burger HUT! :), for Samurai Noodle in U-district! what in the world!!!!

Now I love to eat pho and all....but I love Ramen way more! :) anyhoo...just my luck when i'm done *-* at UW things starts livening up there! sucks butt!

sighhhhhhh.... they even get NEW IDS! what in the world!?

blarghhh

Playfully on the beach -

2008-03-18T10:12:00.001-07:00

ahhhhh!

2008-03-16T17:22:00.000-07:00

* courtesy of BC
Hi hi!

so it's been a long quarter...oh man! I'm almost done! eek!

any suggestions on what I should do? besides work? hehe!

BAD potty MOUTHS!

2008-03-05T21:29:00.001-08:00

Today I was sitting in the mall with a friend eating my Red Mango when I hear this mother speaking to her daughter as they passed by. What I hear is so shocking to me, because here she is screaming about something using potty language and the one thing that stands out to me is the word "Bitch". Now this little girl had to be younger than 10 for sure...what amazes me as how potty mouth language, okay okay Profanity, is in everyday use now! geez....

I may be a baby or something, but it still makes me cringe. I'm not saying that occasionally I will let my anger out and potty mouth but even when I do, for some reason I STILL feel really bad! Maybe not at the exact moment that I'm angry at something/someone and I use a word or two..hehe.... but then afterwards I STILL feel bad.

On the other hand, I don't care who you are, I don't believe that it should be okay for an adult to use profanity when speaking to their child, for me it makes it seem like it's okay, what's wrong with being nice AND talking nice. If the child ends up to be a potty mouth as an adult then so be it...

But in the mean time, don't let it be their everyday words under the age of 10!

aiyi yiiiiiiii!

2008-03-04T17:52:00.002-08:00

ehhhh can some just hit me over the head with something please?

I'll love you forever and ever! muah! see I love you right now! muah muah!

aiyi yiiiiiiii

2008-03-04T17:52:00.001-08:00